I.Need.Something.

Good Evening. Happy Friday!

I’ve just had dinner, tonight had fish and chips, very fattening but oh well, it was sooo good haha. Been busy working all day today, and I got hardly any sleep last night as I went to bed really late and then woke up early for work.
One of my clients today was a lady who we used to live opposite in our old house, I did her nails about 3 weeks ago and I realised who it was after she had left and then I was speaking to my Mum and Grandma about it and they confirmed who it was, she is soooo lovely, she’s 80 now, but she is such a sweet, kind person, so before she came in today for her appointment, I went to buy her a nice plant! :-]
One of my nail clients today was a lady who really liked films like I do, so we were discussing films the whole time, and she also read some of her book, “The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo”, she said when she comes to the salon it’s great relaxation time and she can have a quick read. Haha.

Last night, I messaged the guy I haven’t stopped thinking about for months…. I sent a blunt, straight to the point message with no “xo” at the end, lol. It went along the lines of:
“Hey babe. I’m coming down to Ldn on Monday. My plans got a bit messed up, so I’ll come and stay at yours and we can fuck each other senseless?”

He replied more or less straight away:
“Lol bit random u sexy bitch!! How long u down for. Got me horny straight away! Lol X”

So I replied an hour or so later, saying I was going to be there till about Wednesday as I have work on Thursday, and then he sent a shit message back…… :
“Could be a bit awkward cos my cousin and his woman are at mine for a few weeks. Would be easier 2 arrange one of your friends houses. Defo wnt 2 c u and fuck ur brains out tho! X”

Needless to say, I have not replied, nor will I be doing so anytime soon. I have always felt there is something he is not telling me, he does weird things, like blowing me off last minute, when we arranged to meet in September. I’ve wondered for some time if he has some sort of Girlfriend going on, not really sure if he is even who he says he is. There’s no way I could know, as he apparently doesn’t have a Facebook or anything else for that matter. It’s just strange, and doesn’t really add up. It’s like he wants to see me and do all this stuff with me etc, but there’s something holding him back or stopping him when it comes down to it anyway. It pisses me off and annoys the fuck out of me, that I don’t know.

I’ve cancelled going to London now, as I mainly wanted to see my Sister and she said I can’t stay at hers because she has too much work to do and friends staying for a week just after I would be potentially leaving, for her birthday. I also was really going down to see him, and I cba with him fucking me off again, because if he did that again, I would seriously wanna find out where he was at that moment [no doubt in a pub/bar in Camden] and go and fucking punch him in the face. LOL. I also would want to see some other guys/friends, but I would just end up feeling worse afterwards or whatever. So, instead, I’m going to have my hair done this week, hopefully order a juicing machine, and go to the gym- considering paying for a month to begin with, and see how it goes, and then gradually build up, all going well.
Then, I will be prepared, feel and look amazing, and go down, and find a job and a placement, and make new contacts, and see him and then he will realise. Hahaha.

I finally put did my nails last night, after being acrylic free for about 3 weeks! Feel so much better with my beautiful long, rounded, black talons. LUSH.

I cannot stop thinking about how much I need to do this year. I know I should be DOING instead of just thinking, but it stresses me out. Driving, tattoos, piercings, work, money, assignments, courses, gym, ETC. Never ending! Arrrgh!

I am now going to blog some pics, after my massive rant!
XOXO